(concept from 2009)

(work realized today!!finally..)

And what is the work about..you really need to be Turkish to understand the word ‘misafir perver’ meaning hospitable. I always hated the whole act/performance of preparing/bringing and serving the Turkish tea and Freud would definitely have called it sublimation. I always played with the idea of doing the complete opposite of what was expected from me.and being misafirperver could easily have turned into being misafirperver-t and thus changing the whole concept for being nice towards visitors..

Im still struggling with the issue of shame. I havent even said what this statement really mean to me and it seems like it will take some time as it is ayip telling the truth…but I dont always think that its me not being ready for expressing the truth and my true self. Its still my family and my surroundings not actually not being ready for the real me. Maybe I too need to negotiate and find a middle way..I even have a video on this subject – discussing with my ex-boyfriend why I cannot make ayip works and how it would affect my family.

More to come on all this, as this is still the main issue for me.